The Laughing Queen(A journey With Me Through The Fever They Call Love)

Introduction :

“The Laughing Queen” is a nostalgic journey through the bittersweet memories of first love. It tells the story of a mischievous boy captivated by a rare laugh that forever changed his heart. Filled with hope and faith, this poem is a prayer for love’s healing and the promise of a future together.

The Laughing Queen

(A journey With Me Through The Fever They Call Love)

So everyone’s asking, what first love feels like?

Most of you know it, right? It hits like a strike.

Me too—I’ve felt it, but didn’t know at first,

Thought it’s a joke, or just a random crush.

Let me take y’all on a ride today,

Hop on my story, we’ll fly far away.

Fourteen years back, I was just a kid,

But trust me, you don’t know half the things I did.

I wasn’t that child who just played and smiled,

I was the genius of mischief—wild.

Causing problems like I had a job,

No one was safe, not even the mob.

Then one day, in Islamabad’s air,

I met a girl with a laugh so rare.

We became friends—slow, not fast,

And my mischief made the moment last.

I made the whole gang laugh real loud,

But her laugh? Man, it stood out from the crowd.

The moment I saw her laughing like that,

My brain said “Game over,” and my heart just sat.

I thought, “It’s a crush, it’ll fade away,”

But weeks turned to months, and months chose to stay.

Then came years, and a decade passed,

But her laugh still hits me, just like the past.

Back in 2015, it all got real,

I said to myself, “This might be the deal.”

Maybe it’s love, not just kiddish flame,

Because even pain felt softer with her name.

Life kept hurting me in every way,

But her one memory could brighten my day.

Boys around me searched for someone new,

But I never looked—my heart already knew.

No girl could match what she became,

No one could even whisper her name.

Oh did I say “my heart”—where’s that now?

She stole it laughing, don’t ask me how.

It’s still with her, I never got it back,

No maps, no clues, no paper track.

What hurts the most is I don’t know her place,

I’d tell someone—but they won’t feel my case.

But I’m still breathing, I’m not yet gone,

I got faith and hope that keeps me on.

I know when pain feels too wide to cross,

God steps in and shows who's boss.

He sends that light when days go blind,

He gives us the ones we never thought we’d find.

So I wait with prayers, and I wait with peace,

For my angel to come and my ache to cease.

She’s my laughing queen, that’s my line,

I’ll think of her till the end of time.

May God write our names on the same page,

As husband and wife, on life’s grand stage.

And may He give all lovers their part—

May He fix each broken heart.

Ameen.

           —Shahzad Sulaiman

Backstory & my thoughts : 

                         So, everyone wants to know what first love is like, and a lot of you have already experienced it, right? Including me. But the thing is, no one really knows what it is at first—just like I didn’t. So today, let me take you on a rollercoaster ride through my experience of first love. Come on board and enjoy the ride.

The story begins when I was a kid, about 14 years ago. At that time, I wasn’t just some random kid to mess with. I was the number one genius at making problems for other kids and even adults. Yeah, you heard me right—no one was safe. Back then, I was causing mischief as if someone was paying me to do it.

Anyway, after some months in Islamabad, I met a girl. Slowly, we became friends. Then one day, thanks to one of my mischiefs, I managed to get the boys and her laughing loudly. And that, my friends, was the moment of my life. Seeing her laugh knocked me out cold, and after that, I was in a dream world, imagining her laughing all the time.

At first, I thought it was just a childhood crush that would go away after some time. But I was wrong. Weeks turned into months, months turned into years, and years turned into more than a decade—fourteen years—but that innocent laugh never left me. I had already guessed back in 2015 that maybe it was more than a childhood crush; maybe I was in love. And I was right.

Life has been painful for me in many ways, but the only thing that made me happy was remembering this girl. Just thinking about her could make my day. A lot of boys my age just try to be boys and look for the right girl to marry, but not me. After I saw that girl laughing at me, I never even thought of another girl or replacing her. Let’s just say no other girl can take her place in my heart.

Wait, did I just say “my heart”? Honestly, I don’t even know where my heart is right now. After the laughing queen stole it from my chest, I never got it back. It’s still with her. The most painful thing for me right now is that I don’t know where she is, and I can’t tell anyone because no one would ever understand my story.

But here’s the thing I know about myself—I am still alive, I still have faith, and I believe that when we think no one can heal us, God surprises us by giving us what we want if we ask the right way and truly mean it. I know God will surprise me by giving me my wish, my angel, my laughing queen. So I can wait for her no matter how much time it takes. I am going to keep thinking she is the one. May God let us be together as a married couple, and may God grant us all our incomplete love. Ameen.

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